Semua orang punya kebiasaan buruk. Semua orang punya suatu kebiasaan yang ingin dihentikannya. But somehow, you don’t how to quick. Baca buku sana-sini, sibuk cari info untuk mengatasinya tapi tetap saja susah untuk berhenti. Bagi beberapa kebiasaan buruk, misalnya merokok, minum minuman beralkohol dan narkoba, sulit untuk menghentikan kebiasaan itu karena di dalam hal-hal tersebut mengandung zat yang menyebabkan kecanduan. Bagaimana dengan kebiasaan buruk menggigit kuku, sulit bangun pagi, dan menggertakkan gigi ketika tidur? Mungkin kebiasaan itu dilakukan dibawah alam sehingga sulit untuk dihentikan. Tapi bagaimana dengan kebiasaan yang dilakukan sepenuhnya dalam keadaan sadar? Misalnya kebiasaan makan tidak di meja makan melainkan sambil menonton TV?
Memang sulit sekali untuk berhenti dari suatu kebiasaan? Kebiasaan yang jelas-jelas kebiasaan buruk.
Awalnya, 15 Juli di pagi hari terasa sangat indah. Cuacanya cerah, hatiku ceria. Hari ini tampaknya sangat bersahabat sampai akhirnya ketentraman hari ini di rusak oleh sebuah berita duka. Ya, hari ini aku kembali kehilangan seorang anggota keluarga dekat yaitu Bibi (dLm bhs Karo) aLias Maktua (dLm bhs Batak) aLias Tante (dLm bhs Indonesia) a.k.a kakaknya Mama aQ. Waktu dengar berita ini yg pertama kaLi terLintas di pikiranku yaitu” Tuhan, kesedihan apa lagi yg engkau berikan kepada keluarga ini? Dalam 2 tahun terakhir, sudah 4 anggota keLuarga yg Engkau panggil. Sudah Tuhan, tolong hentikan, jangan ambil lagi.” Bodoh banget yaa kedengerannya 
Tapi yg memang begitulah, dipisahkan oleh kematian membawa kesedihan yg luar biasa bagi orang yg ditinggalkan.
Rasa seperti baru kemarin waktu Mama aku ninggaL, waktu itu aku tidak berhenti menangis lalu si Bibi duduk di sampingku, menenangkan aku dan terlihat begitu tegar. Padahal dalam hatinya tentu saja ia menangis karena didahului oleh adiknya. Tapi semua kesedihan itu sanggup dibendungnya dengan pikiran positif, selalu percaya bahwa rancangan Tuhan adalah indah adanya. Bahkan ketika anaknya sendiri meninggal, si Bibi masih terlihat begitu tegar. Sungguh, perempuan yg luar biasa. Berbanding terbalik dengan aku yg cengeng dan rapuh. Hahaha.
Sebenarnya inti dari note ini apaan yaa? 
Tadinya sih pengen buat cerita sedih yg menyayat hati sampai yg baca note ini ikutan menitikkan air mata, tp teringat sosok si Bibi yg selalu sabar, tabah, tegar dan berpikiran positif, niat untuk cerita sedih lebih baik dibuang saja
Aku cuma mau biLang ke diriku sendiri, someday, harus bisa jadi seperti si Bibi. Seorang Bibi yg lembut, perhatian, dan menyayangi keponakannya seperti menyayangi anaknya sendiri. Don’t worry aunty, aku bakalan tetap ngelanjutin kuliahku no matter how hard the situation will be, just like you said. Sebenarnya sayang sih, aku kan wisudanya tinggal tahun depan. Bibi gak sempat lihat aku wisuda secara langsung, tp tetap bisa lihat dari surga kan? :))
Saat Tuhan mengambil seseorang darimu, maka Tuhan akan menggantinya dengan seseorang yang lebih baik. Is it true? Kalau begitu, bolehkah aku request? Dear Mr. God, aku request ponakan donk. Cewek, cowok, kalau perlu kembar sekalian juga gak masalah. Yg banyak. Biar makin banyak yg manggil aku Bibi. Pleaseeee *kedip-kedipin mata sama Tuhan*
Come to me, come to me tonight
Oh God, I need you, anyway
Baby, I just wanna be, be around you all the time
Oh God, I need you, oh…
I’m running, I’m scared tonight
I’m running, I’m scared of life
I’m running, I’m scared of breathing
‘Cause I adore you
I’m running, I’m scared tonight
I’m running, I’m scared of breathing
‘Cause I adore you
Come to me, come to me a bit more
Oh God, I need you
There’s nothing left for me to say
So rest on me darling, stay forever more
Oh God, I need you, I need you
I’m running, I’m scared tonight
I’m running, I’m scared of life
I’m running, I’m scared of breathing
‘Cause I adore you
I’m running, I’m scared tonight
I’m running, I’m scared of breathing
‘Cause I adore you
Oh, what I wouldn’t give away
To be your shelter and keep you safe
Keep you safe
I’m running, I’m scared tonight
I’m running, I’m scared of life
I’m running, I’m scared of breathing
‘Cause I adore you
I’m running, I’m scared tonight
I’m running, I’m scared of breathing
‘Cause I adore you
And I’m running
And I’m running scared
‘Cause I adore you
Ell & Nikki Running Scared
[Adam Levine]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
[Travie McCoy]
If I was just another dusty record on the shelve
Will you blow me off and play me like everybody else
If I ask you to scratch my back, could you manage that
Like it read well, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
This the last girl that play me left a couple cracks
I used to used to used to used to, now I’m over that
Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts
If I could only find a note to make you understand
I sing a song and the image grab me by the hands
Keep myself inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you
[Chorus]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo
[Travie McCoy]
If I wasn’t old school, fifty pound boombox
Would you hold me on your shoulder, wherever you walk
Would you turn my volume up before of the cops
And crank it higher everytime they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don’t get mad at me
When you have to purchase mad D batteries
Appreciate every mixtape your friends make
You never know we come and go like we’re on the interstate
I think finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hear it, sing along and take me by the hands
Keep myself inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart is a stereo that only plays for you
[Chorus]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo
[Bridge]
I only pray you never leave me behind
Because good music can be so hard to find
I take your hand and pull it closer to mine
Thought love was dead, but now you’re changing my mind
[Chorus]
My heart’s a stereo
It beats for your, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio
Turn me up when you feel low
This melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo
Oh oh oh oh To my stereo
Oh oh oh oh So sing along to my stereo
Aku bukan siapa-siapanya kamu
Kamu bukan siapa-siapanyaku
Aku nggak pernah atur-atur kamu
Jangan kamu atur-atur aku
Jangan ada perasaan
Kita nggak ada ikatan
eo e eeo eyoo
Ya sudah
eo e eeo eyoo
santai saja
eo e eeo eyoo
Kita hanya
eo e eeo eyoo
Teman biasa
Jangan kau jadi marah
Saat aku bersama dirinya
Jangan kau jadi marah
Kita hanya suka sama suka..
eo e eeo eyoo
Ya sudah
eo e eeo eyoo
santai saja
eo e eeo eyoo
Kita hanya
eo e eeo eyoo
Teman biasa
eo e eeo eyoo
Ya sudah
eo e eeo eyoo
santai saja
eo e eeo eyoo
Kita hanya
eo e eeo eyoo
Teman biasa
You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn’t good enough.
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough.
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself.
But when it comes to me,
I wouldn’t wanna be anybody else.
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I’m no beauty queen.
I’m just beautiful me.
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life.
Come on!
Who says?
Who says you’re not perfect?
Who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting?
Trust me,
That’s the price of beauty.
Who says you’re not pretty?
Who says you’re not beautiful?
Who says?
It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you.
You tell me whatcha mean,
But they keep whiting out the truth.
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light.
It keeps you beneath the stars,
Won’t let you touch the sky.
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I’m no beauty queen.
I’m just beautiful me.
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life.
Come on!
Who says?
Who says you’re not perfect?
Who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting?
Trust me,
That’s the price of beauty.
Who says you’re not pretty?
Who says you’re not beautiful?
Who says?
Who says you’re not star potential?
Who says you’re not presidential?
Who says you can’t be in movies?
Listen to me, listen to me.
Who says you don’t past the test?
Who says you can’t be the best?
Who said?
Who said?
Would you tell me who said that?
Yeah, who said?
Who says?
Who says you’re not perfect?
Who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting?
Trust me,
That’s the price of beauty.
Who says you’re not pretty?
Who says you’re not beautiful?
Who says?
Who says?
Who says you’re not perfect?
Who says you’re not worth it?
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting?
Trust me,
That’s the price of beauty.
Who says you’re not pretty?
Who says your not beautiful?
Who says?
I need to know what’s on your mind
These coffee cups are getting cold
Mind the people passing by
They don’t know I’ll be leaving soon
I’ll fly away tomorrow
To far away
I’ll admit a cliché
Things won’t be the same without you
I’ll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I’ll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me
I’ll let you know what’s on my mind
I wish they’ve made you portable
Then I’ll carry you around and round
I bet you’ll look good on me
I’ll fly away tomorrow
It’s been fun
I’ll repeat the cliché
Things won’t be the same without you
I’ll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I’ll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me
I’ve been meaning to call you soon
But we’re in different times
You might not be home now
Would you take a message
I’ll try to stay awake
And fight your presence in my head
I’ll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I’ll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me
Ada beberapa yang suka dengan fashion tapi gaya berpakaiannya gak fashionable alias cuma suka liat-liat tapi enggak make. Nah, I’m the one kind of that person. Somehow, aku gak pedean sih kalau jadi pusat perhatian. Tapi kalau beli majalah pasti yang pertama dilihat rublik fashionnya. Maklum, namanya juga cewek, pasti suka sama yang namanya pakaian, tas, sepatu dkk, walaupun itu sekedar cuma dilihat tapi enggak beli. Makanya cewek itu paling suka window shopping
Beberapa jam yang lalu, aku barusan aja ngelakuin online window shopping (gak beli, cuma liat-liat aja :P) dan mampir ke tempat (blog lebih tepatnya) fashion blogger favoritku, Diana Rikasari. Diawali dari hobi memakai baju-baju keren, foto, dan diupload ke blognya, lama kelamaan makin banyak yang mengikuti gaya pakaiannya, dan akhirnya famous deh sekarang. Diana Rikasari termasuk salah satu fashion blogger yang menurut aku, luar biasa perkembangannya. Memulai dari koleksi pribadi di lemari sampai sekarang dapat sponsor sana-sini. Jadi kalau mau gaya gak perlu nguras kocek dalam-dalam. Hhaha.. Yang tadinya bekerja untuk orang lain, sekarang punya brand dan online shop sendiri. Enak banget yaa jadi fashion blogger. Kalau aku mah gak ada bakat buat kesana. Karena yaa itu tadi. Aku sukanya liat-liat doank. Hihihi
O iya, tadi waktu browsing, ketemu link fashion blogger yang oke juga, yaitu blognya Michelle dan Sonia Erika. Khusus untuk shopnya Michelle, paling pas deh untu orang-orang yang hunting barang branded original tapi dengan harga lebih murah pastinya karena barangnya kebanyakan pre-loved. Tapi aku jadi kepikiran juga sih, kenapa harus dibeli kalau toh ujung-ujungnya dijual. Branded dan original lagi. Sayang banget. Tapi ya sudahlah, untung bagi kita yang beli
Anyway, sekian dulu untuk hari ini. Aku mau ngelanjuti lagi kegiatan ‘liat-liat’-ku. hihihi
Adios
Is this what you meant? Is this what you dreamed of
When you were making your plans, shaking the dirt off?
Do you feel like you and I belong? Oh
Just keep your eyes on the road and nothing can go wrong
You can do so much better than this
You can do so much better than this
I’ve been checking my sums, oh where did the time go?
Holding my photograph up to the window
Through the paper and refracted sun, oh
I can see all the things I wish that I’d done
You can hang your hopes on the medicine
You can put your faith in the phone-in
You can tell yourself, you doing your best
You can do so much better than this
Get a grip on yourself, get a grip on yourself
Could have been something but you’re too late
And you weren’t invited anyway
Just a photograph show the wrong man
‘Cause there is no soap star holding your hand
You don’t see yourself in the freeze frame
Must be someone else using your name
And everyone will be the same
And everyone will glow
And everywhere you’ll see your name
In every shop window
It’s better than this
You can do so much better than this
You can do so much better than this
You can do so much better than this
*gambar: copy dari Om GoogLe*
I Love write your name on my book
I can write it a hundred times
I Love write your name on my book
When the class is so boring,
but your name naver bored in my head
I Love write your name on my book
By writting your name,
somehow makes me feels closer to you.
So 2021.8 km feels like 0 km to me.
I Love write your name on my book
And then suddenly, I can hear your voice:
the sound when you laugh (I love it very much)
the sound when you angry (you’ll change your intonation)
the sound when sing (you are a bad singer :D)
and the silence sound when we both got nothing to say
But I do enjoy that moment.
I Love write your name on my book
I’m too afraid that I’ll forget you
So I’ll always write your name on my book
to keep remind me that you was in my life.
